“Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn. My God, do you learn.” ― C.S. Lewis

Sometimes we walk into empty spaces with the idea that the past has affected us too much to move forward. How do you leave the past? Is forgetting possible? Should we forget? I say it’s possible but it’s easier said then done. I do not ask these questions in vain. Yet, these are the questions that have held me captive at night for the last few weeks. I have come to many late night and early morning conclusions in the last month concerning these questions and many more. Pssss I must also admit that I have become a more sensitive person (thank God.) It’s amazing what happens when someone’s personality and story changes and becomes so affective in your life…it’s written on my heart.

In the last month I have done life with 28 viral girls. And by viral I mean each one has a personality that draws you in and makes you feel as if you are right where you should be. I speak of Liberty soccer girls…my soccer girls. I say that with entitlement because I would and will do anything to make sure that they each reach their God potential and protect them with everything I can possibly offer. I have learned from each one of them and, even if I never mention it to them, and they have moved my heart to a desire that make me reach for more. See but there’s this one person that has deeply struck a chord in my heart and in my view of life. Her name is Bailey and she has this gift I wish I had. She has this ability to truly love someone no matter the faults or flaws. I see in her the mystery of unconditional love. I have never met someone who has been hurt (in every aspect) so much by one person and yet her response is, “ I want his heart to heal, I want him to meet with God, and I want to hug him and tell him that there’s hope for him as person.”

I could not identify with her, because this character comes from one person I thought I knew… Jesus Christ. Baily recently met Jesus Christ in a beautiful exchange a few weeks ago. So how do I explain the lack of love in my heart for people (being a Christian this whole time)? Yet she has always had this unconditional love for people, this Christ like character that I know nothing about. I concluded that maybe God only gave this gift and only engraved and entrusted this kind of heart to a few so their affective heart may touch and soften others in a quiet impactful manner.


I have met this kind of heart (bailey) and have been softened to the core.


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